Let’s go! It’s just another wasted night The world is going to hell tonight I’m stuck in this hell tonight I’m going down in the flames… I been feelin’ kinda down, I been feelin’ kinda out I been runnin’ like a dog that’s been kicked around the house I been starin’ out the window and walkin’ through the streets And findin’ nuthin’ but decay in everything that I see Where can you turn? What can ya do? When their society’s got nuthin’ for you I got hate for everything in sight, and the world is going to hell tonight But I’m gonna find some peace of mind The world has gone to hell tonight But tonight I’m gonna find some peace of mind… If I drink this wine I can stand the pain If I drink this wine I can play their game If I drink this shit maybe I can bear… Bear to be a part of this human race! If I drink this wine I can stand this place If I drink this wine I can stand your face! If I dink this shit maybe I can bear… Bear to be a part of this human race, Bear to be stuck in this messed up place, Bear to be lost without a trace, Bear to be a part of this twisted human race! I gotta find something to ease my mind, In this world of shit, in this world of lies Cheap wine! I gotta find something to ease my pain, In this world of shit, in this world gone insane…
What can we do? What can you do? In a world where no one cares at all Nobody cares at all Take a look around you, do you like what you see? What can we do? The world has gone completely mad, society’s diseased What can we do? The violence and the hate I’ve seen, it makes me want to puke What can I do? I can turn my back on this place ‘cause nobody sees the truth! I spent so many years wondering why What can I do? I spent so many years with tears in my eyes What could I do? While the rich just get richer, my family cried In this society of lies and nobody cares at all! I turn my back! Nobody cares at all! I walk away! Nobody cares at all! I won’t listen to a word that they say, I spit on their way, ‘cause nobody cares and they’ll never hear the cries and the prayers while my kind’s locked down by their lies! They lie… There’s gotta be something me and you can do, ‘cause brother I gotta tell ya’ shit’s lookin bad for me and you Goodbye America, we’ve dragged you straight to hell… Your people have gone completely insane and we’ve dragged you straight to hell…
Maybe someday oh yeah! Hey baby I gotta tell ya’, there’s not much left of me I been runnin’ down a dead end street and livin’ outside your society And maybe I’m kind of twisted, but just maybe there’s nothin’ pure, But if you come with me maybe we can find what we’re lookin’ for, oh yeah! Well baby, you know I come from nowhere! Yeah you know it baby! And yeah baby I know that you don’t care, you don’t care nuthin’ ‘bout me! I’ve searched this cold, cold world for so many years and I been runnin’ after hope and livin’ on a prayer The sign in the road says we’re goin’ nowhere I gotta get away, get away from here Maybe someday we’ll find a way Go! Well, if I hold out my hand will you take it from me? If I open my heart will you help me to see again? I lost my heart and soul so many years ago, oh yeah! Maybe someday, I’ll find what I’m lookin’ for Maybe someday, I’ll find a better way Someday Maybe baby, we’ll find a way outta’ here someday… Someway…
I got nothing here for you but a hate that runs me through and through I got nothing left for you I got nothing left deep inside, deep inside I cried I lost something deep inside Years ago, alone, I cried I look back and wonder why, I cried for help alone but where were you? Where the fuck were you? I lost something deep inside, years ago alone I cried I got nothing left for you, I got nothing left deep inside Deep inside something died Let’s go What have I got? I got nihilism I got nothing, I got nothing for you I got nihilism I got nothing to lose I got nihilism I got nothing I got nothing for you I got nothing
I’m in exile I been livin’ in exile I been hangin’ on the corner, starin’ at the night sky, and watchin’ the cars drive by Their faces stare but they don’t see me as I think about the past an I wonder why, I wonder why A side of life they’ll never see has passed before my jaded eyes I’m on the outside lookin’ in I hold the burning tears inside my heart I been runnin’, I been runnin’ with the hunted, I been runnin’ for my whole life I’m in exile And I got nothin’ but a hope inside, in my heart where hope has died I been livin’ in exile Tears and pain like a stinging rain, have passed before my eyes I’m in exile Forsaken! Forgotten! If you haven’t been there then you’ll never understand I’ve stolen, I’ve lied, I’ve traded my pride, ‘cause I never had a helping hand They’ll steal your innocence and they’ll take away your soul I’ve stolen, I’ve lied and there were times when there wasn’t anyplace to go So let’s go! I been runnin’, I been runnin’ with the hunted, I been runnin’ for my whole life I’m in exile And I got nothin’ but a hope inside, in my heart where hope has died I been livin’ in exile Tears and pain like a stinging rain, have passed before my eyes I’m in exile How many tears have our motherscried? How many of my kind have died? So I stand here to spit in your eye and tell you your society is nothing but lies They’ll look us up and hold us down, just another wasted youth, another dead end town I been waiting so long And now my hope is gone There’s gotta be something more than this There’s gotta be something that I missed I’m in exile I been runnin’, I been runnin’ with the hunted, I been runnin’ for my whole life I’m in exile And I got nothin’ but a hope inside, in my heart where hope has died I been livin’ in exile Tears and pain like a stinging rain, have passed before my eyes I’m in exile How many tears have they torn from my eyes? How many times will we be denied? They lock us up and they hold us down, just another wasted yout, another dead end town I been waiting so long I been waitning now my hope is… gone
Everything is the same as before, but where do I go from here? Where do we go from here?
Bitch Called HopeAll my life I relied on one thing and that one thing fucked me up even more She is tempting and promises things that'll never happen of that I'm sure Years I've wasted waiting for her to come through for me why was I so blind Waiting innocently as time went on life's gotten worse my resentment's strong Now I've smartened up I'm turning my back I don't need her I gave her a smack She failed me over and over again no surprise there she was never a friend I've been dragging a bitch called hope (a bitch called hope) I've been hanging at the end of her rope (a bitch called hope) I've been dragging a bitch called hope (a bitch called hope) I've been hanging at the end of her fucking rope I'd have given her my heart and my dreams She then strung me along threw away these years Don't let that bitch take you for a ride like she took me and took most everyone I know So I've kicked the bitch to the curb but in the end she's left me a bitter twisted motherfucker I've been dragging a bitch called hope (a bitch called hope) I've been hanging at the end of her rope (a bitch called hope) I've been dragging a bitch called hope (a bitch called hope) I've been hanging at the end of her fucking rope
The things I've done and the things I've seen are the foundation for the pain that lies in me it never leaves The pain becomes pure hatred, the hatred just burns, it burns, it just fuckin burns I'm being overwhelmed I'm losing control my childhood ripped away my innocence they stole It's time to learn true fear on reckoning day the grand finale I'll never shed a tear I want to piss on the ashes of your twisted world I wanna watch the whole fucking thing burn, burn, burn Because all I have is hate for our twisted world and when it falls I'll die laughing I wanna spit on the ashes of this twisted world I wanna watch the whole fucking thing burn, burn, burn Because an enemy of man is what I am and when the end comes you'll hear me laughing Psychotic laughter as the world I hate burns away praying's no use we've reached the judgement day of our lives We'll all meet our demise The guilt ridden and the innocent must now cry and die in pain The world will reach out to repent any chances have been spent and this is what was meant This world built by hate it'll soon be too late and we can't ever deny our fucking fate I want to piss on the ashes of your twisted world I wanna watch the whole fucking thing burn, burn, burn Because all I have is hate for our twisted world and when it falls I'll die laughing I wanna spit on the ashes of this twisted world I wanna watch the whole fucking thing burn, burn, burn Because an enemy of man is what I am and when the end comes you'll hear me laughing The glee on my is contempt for the world the end pleases me it excites me Armageddon my prayers of hate are answered and now you'll hear me laughing I'll shit on the ashes of this fucked up world as I watch it burn let it fucking burn The last glimpse this world will ever see is me laughing aloud Bring it on!
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you and fuck society to Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you and fuck the world because my kind, my kind, my kind belong nowhere My kind, my kind, my kind are hated and feared We all started as someone with a chance to make our way Sometimes the world was cold but we waited for the better days We watched the years go by and nothing seemed to change We waited, hoped and prayed as the hard times felt like stinging rain Well now that hope is gone, somewhere it turned to rage Hatred, violence, booze and crime, sometimes it seemed the only way (to get by) I always knew I'd never make it cause I'm twisted in the brain But I swear to you all right now that I'll never live like the ones that made me hate Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you and fuck society to Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you and fuck the world because my kind, my kind, my kind belong nowhere My kind, my kind, my kind are hated and feared I know I'm going nowhere and I been on a losin' streak and a scumbag, zero and anti-hero are all you think of me (and you're right) I know I'm going nowhere and I been on a losin streak and lowlife, loser and dead-end cruiser are all you think of me (but I say) Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you and fuck society to Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you and fuck the world because my kind, my kind, my kind belong nowhere My kind, my kind, my kind are hated and feared Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you and fuck mankind My kind, my kind, my kind are hated and feared Wasted youth, I never had all the chances Wasted youth, I never had no savin' grace Wasted youth, yeah I've made a few mistakes Wasted youth, but how long will I have to pay? So, some of you were born into happiness and wealth While some of us were born to a life of hell And some of us were lost and some of us were found but most of us were beaten by life to the ground And maybe I'll never see the day that I win but I'll always have time for a beer with my friends We'll fight everybody and the world 'till the end and if you fuck around with us you'll get your head kicked in! Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you and fuck society to Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you and fuck the world because my kind, my kind, my kind belong nowhere My kind, my kind, my kind are hated and feared
Well as of late I think I've tripped and gone astray Maybe I'm no good Somewhere along the line I've lost my way in life Maybe I'm no good Waiting for a better way, waiting for the better days I've gotta stop pissing my life away But I can't find any shelter, maybe I'm lost forever Maybe there's no way out Not everybody grows up the same Some have to deal with oppression and rage When you now you know you've got no way out you find a way to deal with the pain It started as a casual fling, I'd take a drink and everything would seem alright But now I know I've go no way out 'cause this addiction is with me for life I used to drink form the bottle, but now the bottle seems to drink from me Lately when I look in the mirror it's a stranger staring back I see I tried to find the answer at the end of a bottle while inside I was crying but I kept on trying you can't hurt something that's already broken I've fought the world but now my will is gone I've got to stop living my life all fucked up (all fucked up) But I just can't seem to get it right because I'm all fucked up 'Cause I've been living, living my life, living my life all fucked up For years I look around and see what's going down, and it's all fucked up I gotta get out I gotta get away Maybe it's too late Maybe I'm fucked up
Go! Now I'm older and my mind is set I'm moving like a guided missile haven't reached my target yet I'm loaded with anger and adrenaline get so mad and raged sometimes I forget where I've been My thoughts are cluttered I'm confused That causes a shortening of my already burning fuse Been cheated on a chance to lead a normal life Everything I've ever done has always ended in strife In the night, the night always brings the pain I feel so dirty, my hands, my hands are stained Can't see eye to eye with anyone, my mind is set and done You can't argue with a loaded gun Sometimes, sometimes I feel I'm going insane with all these sick thoughts in my head I'm going evil in the brain I lack any type of common sense 'cause I always want to solve all my problems with my fists and violence I think I'm going insane I want to give fear to the world Evil in the brain you can't reason with a lunatic I'm evil, evil in the brain Evil in the brain are the only words I can use to describe what I saw, how I grew and what I didn't want to know I see the world die and not last long enough to see the blood dry I'll die! Smirking and laughing as long as I get my goals in sight That's right, it's end is what I wish for every night And the world is going to hell in a hand basket all I want to do is fill it's casket I'm losing the cancerous tumor in my head I call a brain I'm losing control evil in the brain Kindness or hatred, I can't tell the difference evil in the brain I wanna give fear to the world evil in the brain You can't reason with a lunatic I'm evil, evil in the brain Sick ideas seem so normal inside my brewing hate but in everyday life I'm totally abnormal And all I see is red I was misled I wish I was dead instead of having being bled And now it's me against the world Right or wrong, I haven't changed this long because my madness is that strong But in the end the world will pay I won't be held responsible there's never been another way I'm losing the cancerous tumor in my head I call a brain I've lost it I'm going evil, evil in the brain No pity for the suffering of the world 'cause my mind is fucked and my heart is cold Look at my face, there's no grace and I'm laced with disgust for the entire human race My mind is a fury traumatized by all their shit and lies Broken promises and endless hatred for the world, it dies! A recipe for madness in a sick cold world I can't go on with these cards I've been dealt I'll just fold Evil in the brain evil in the brain
The crime… birth My motive’s clear my final objective is to destroy and conquer all that I fear The fears in me instilled through the years that’s causing growing pains I think back I get irritate so full of hate The truth behind the madness I faced as of late I get irrational, but not emotional Show no emotion will teach them to fear and respect This world’s gone straight to hell fast It’s broke my heart and soul like shattered glass It’s very happiness feeds my hate It’s very existence will open the gates of rage I’m filled with distress I want to destroy everything that’s ever filled me with rage I’m filled with distress I want to destroy everything you’ve ever known and loved I seek revenge on society To destroy all you’ve ever known I want revenge on this world For my crime of being born This fucking world and life owe me a lifetime of heartache and pain while you’ve thrived and you don’t fucking know me And I’ll do all I can to rip your world apart And I will prove why it was wrong for me to ever be And I will unleash my vengeance upon thee I seek revenge on your society to destroy all you’ve ever loved I want revenge on your world for my crime of being born For the crime of being born
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Bullshit! Who the fuck do you think you are you’ve taken it a bit too far Believing that you’re king shit in your fake fantasy A clown dressed to impress. Soft core, Mickey Mouse and nothing less Exposing you will make me rest until then remember you’re a bullshit fake paper gangster You aint nothing but an image and a liar A bullshit fake paper gangster a punk ass motherfucker Could it be you saw it on TV? The way you act, where I come from you’d never last Could it be you’re lying through your teeth? Liar! Once long, long time ago, I was naive to all I know People tried to push on to me their weak mentality I woke up and I know I am real and not for show Unlike you, who knows inside your soft because you’re just another bullshit fake, paper gangster You aint nothing but an image an a liar A bullshit fake, paper gangster A punk ass motherfucker Bullshit! (I) I know what lies inside (I know) what lies behind your lies (what lies) behind your lies inside (inside) I know your lies You’re just another fucking bullshit fake, paper gangster You aint nothing but an image and a liar A bullshit fake, paper gangster a punk ass motherfucker The life I’ve lived, the pain I’ve felt with such things you’ve never dealt So to me you are a maggot So when you go and outcast me and I can’t do a fucking thing know that I know inside you’re weak!
(It never ends) I lose again and again My life is a hole filled with dark misery The pain never ends, it just builds up inside Like a ticking time bomb I’ll explode in due time I couldn’t give a fuck about you Your beliefs and what you hold true means shit! When your life is nothing, living is the same as dying Simply put my life is hell No matter what you try, no matter what you do You’ll always end up alone, when your life is through Should be no surprise when you’re an outcast in life My human compassion is gone, my human qualities are long gone And the hate and the rage and the pain and the strain of live have left me completely insane I was born into nothing to this world full of shit and nothing’s changing anytime soon So I would rather die than listen to you try to compare me to you Desperate, I never had a future, I never had a way out Hunted, they hold me down, they locked me out Hopeless, I am the enemy of all you hold dear Enemy, I am the end, the evil in this world of fear I was promised that things’ll look up They lied! I’ve lost all sense of love and pride I’ll die, a lonely angry bitter mess Revenge is the only thing and nothing less Revenge! I want to laugh in your face before your last breath My revenge will befall on all before my own death I was born into nothing to this world full of shit and nothing’s changing anytime soon So I’ll spit my last breath in your face and shriek to the sky Fuck you! Life slips through my fingertips I rot away body and soul (I shut my eyes) I close my mind until the day I die I don’t try to pretend I’m not a disgrace, I know what I am (I shut my eyes) I close my mind until the end of time Inside it burns, it twists and turns I tried to love but I’ll never learn (I shut my eyes) I close my mind, until the day I die I have no soul left I’m the walking dead I rot away (I close these eyes) I close my mind, until the end of time
I sit alone in my dark room Visions of my life flash before me Remembering, then thinking, realizing the world has only fucked me over And the pain mounts It builds up, it builds up inside, oh yeah (It’s time) I’m a time bomb ticking motherfucker A ticking time bomb motherfucker So all I want, all I need are reasons, reasons for my anger Reasons for my hatred and fear This world around me, so cold and harsh Not letting up, not letting anyone succeed their hardships and loses and panic and stress From my life I can’t ever expect any less, I guess But the human mind and soul can only take so much I’ve lost my soul and there’s not much of my mind left (It’s time) I’m a time bomb ticking motherfucker (My time is yet to come) A ticking time bomb motherfucker (My time has not yet come) (It’s time) I’m a time bomb ticking motherfucker (My time is yet to come) A ticking time bomb motherfucker (My time has not yet come) I stand here and accept the fact I’m alone, alone in a world that doesn’t want me I stand here and admit my defeat, defeat of everything I’ve ever tried my hand in I stand here and acknowledge my loss, the loss of a gentle heart and soul I stand here and welcome death, a death that will cost all those who forced me to hate I’m a time bomb ticking motherfucker (My time is yet to come) A ticking time bomb motherfucker (My time has not yet come) I’m a time bomb ticking motherfucker (My time is yet to come) A ticking time bomb motherfucker (My time…) There’s never been a place for me in this world Cold in callous without love is what’s me No more mistakes on my part Cause I lose when I use my fuckin’ heart I can’t go on like this anymore oh no Cause if I do I’ll get hurt even more, so I’ll just bottle it up and explode Vengeance will be mine For hate’s sake, I can’t forgive and forget For hate’s sake, from now on no more fuckin’ mistakes For hate’s sake, I can’t forgive and forget For hate’s sake For hate’s sake, I can’t forgive and forget For hate’s sake, from now on no more fuckin’ mistakes For hate’s sake, I can’t forgive and forget For hate’s sake Yet another wasted day, another wasted year, another river of tears Fuck the world and fuck you (It’s time) I’m a time bomb ticking motherfucker (My time is yet to come) A ticking time bomb motherfucker (My time has not yet come)
I’m a time bomb ticking motherfucker (My time is yet to come) A ticking time bomb motherfucker (My time has not yet come) (x2)
They say you’ve got to fall to rise, but I’ve fallen from grace too many times When I look in their eyes and I see their lies, I want to shut my eyes forever I’ve had enough of this world, enough of all it’s flaws, troubles and toiles Born with bad luck and into nothing, I hoped for better but what did it bring? Well I been up and I been down, I been out, I guess this world keeps me spinnin’ around And I try, I try to stand but there’s nowhere to run, I think I’ve lost my way, y’know my time is almost done They say you’ve got to fall to rise, but I’ve fallen from grace too many times When I look in their eyes and I see their lies, I want to shut my eyes forever Well, I been up, and I been down, I been out, this wicked world keeps me spinning around, and I’ve tried to understand, but I’ll never learn I won’t even try, I’ll just shut my eyes They say you’ve got to fall to rise, but I’ve fallen from grace too many times When I look in their eyes and I see their lies, I want to shut my eyes forever I don’t want to see no more, (and when I close these eyes) I want to shut my eyes forever, (I’ll finaly find some shelter) And when I close these eyes, I’ll be at peace forever
Fuck You!!!
This is it I can't take it no more My life has no meaning Do you think that yours does My silence is what I pray for but not Until I'm sure that you get yours Hatred makes my world go round Because happiness is something that I never found Explain it to me what's the new trend This week care to stop the hatred and violence Making a difference cause that's what's in Mommy and daddy will be proud in the end Sick of all these spoiled pampered shits That get in my face with their mindless babbling I don't care what you think I don't care I'll piss all over your hopes and dreams What you believe and what you're about Means shit to me 'cause that's what I'm about Too late to change me no chance in that Just stick to living out your sheltered lives I don't feel the need to live I've lost all my Pride and will I've endured this pain in vain I need to end this game end this game Day by day I feel less human Day by day my hatred grows inside Day by day I spent them wishing Spent them wishing that I died I don't feel your love or admiration I don't feel no remorse or pity for the less fortunate I don't feel what you believe is right or wrong I don't feel shit for me and even less for you I don't feel Everything you said has fallen to these deaf ears No tactful use of words can make me see it your way I'll piss all over your holier then thou words Never cared for you or what you ever stood for
Everyday I wake to find nothing has changed Still down on my luck I pray Alone still has to be this way Above me the skies will remain grey Got jealousy for anyone that's happy You don't know I hate you want to hurt you See you suffer, you won't hear the cries For help in me my fear I writhe in pain I was born to lose Angry and alone is what and how I was meant to be Hatred and fear will always be a part of me There's no salvation for me I know that I am cursed for all eternity Maldito - Yo naci Maldecido Bastard - Cursed with life and endless disappointments Monster - Learn to deal with what I've become Outcast - There's no reason to live there's only Hatred - Sometimes that's all that's real Terror - Sometimes that's all I feel Paranoia's got a strangle hold on my mind I want to sigh in relief but not this time It seems now a days to stop this torture need to drink and drink to forget the future Even the people in my life hardly know me The malice and rage I stride to hide and control I want to end this pain my luck drains away like rain There's only endless pain Maldito - Yo naci Maldecido Bastard - Cursed with life and endless disappointments Monster - Learn to deal with what I've become Outcast - There's no reason to live there's only Hatred - Sometimes that's all that's real Terror - Sometimes that's all I feel We're the cursed hide behind friendly smiles There's a need to crush and hurt to avenge our loss Day in day out the pain is too immense to bear My hatred grew cause no one ever cared I fail and fail at everything I do I hope, I lose, to me it's nothing new I try, I fail, I crash and burn I've lost again I die this curse will never end Hatred - Sometimes that's all that's real Terror - Sometimes that's all I feel Hatred - Sometimes that's all that's real Terror - Sometimes that's all I feel
Do you know how hard I tried but I fail Do you know that I tried my best but I lose Don't you know I'm so envious I've got nothing Dead to this world cause I'm all alone Time goes by another wasted year there's no way out I lose myself to another fear I've lost again Deviously low scum is what I've become I want you to die But that's just a lie because I've never changed I feel my hatred about to explode Feel my anger consume you whole You're weak cause life was kinder to you As for me my goal is to make sure you learn what's misery My feelings are gone I'm numb inside I feel they steal I can't heal cause that's my deal My feelings are gone I'm numb inside I feel they steal I can't heal cause that's my deal We won't rot alone the ones we hate Their ends will comfort my hate My plans were set long ago Destroy all the hopes that you've known Crush all your silly dreams You're life aint as perfect as it seems Now feel my hatred explode Now know my plans are a go Now I'll complete my revenge Now my lost dreams I'll avenge You could never understand Who I am what I am what I've become I will spit in your face Until I die for who I am And what I've become You could never understand Who I am what I am what I've become I will spit in your face until I die
Why me A question I ask myself everyday My life is hell must it be this way No chances were ever thrown my way Was it the luck of the draw Was I destined to rot away I question my purpose here I've also got no one to endear I'm resentful bitter and more So all the negative things that happened I've just stored Here we go again I'm losing restraint Here we go again I'm not afraid to show you how much I hate you Your views ain't nothing in my eyes Pathetic outcries lies my rage flies high We ain't the same in this game where pain reigns There's no gains hate remains every day just drains There's nothing here just loathsome misery Longing for unity is just a fantasy I can't assimilate to what I can't relate I feel great irritate there's always hate I've been left behind, surpassed by my so-called peers There's nothing for me just sad lonely misery There's never been a future ahead None as far as the eye can see No breaks It's holding me down Crushing me to the ground Hatred I am soulless misery has left me soulless I am your enemy don't turn your back on me I am the enemy you made this hate you see I ask myself why I'm so blessed Blessed with nothing but rage that won't relent My luck in this world was still-born So I mourn be good be bad so I am torn Stay out of trouble my head I drill still The shit in my life is enough I want to kill You're telling me how to be and what to do You got no clue I'm true to me so fuck you I've been left behind surpassed by my so-called peers There's nothing for me just sad lonely misery There's never been a future ahead None as far as the eye can see No breaks It's holding me down Crushing me to the ground Hatred I am soulless misery has left me soulless I am your enemy don't turn your back on me I am the enemy you made this hate you see I ask myself why I'm so blessed Blessed with nothing but rage that won't relent My luck in this world was still-born So I mourn be good be bad so I am torn Stay out of trouble my head I drill still The shit in my life is enough I want to kill You're telling me how to be and what to do You got no clue I'm true to me so fuck you I believe in nothing There is nothing left to hold me up I believe in nothing Slipping and sinking to a worthless existence I believe in nothing There is nothing left to hold me up I believe in nothing Fading away to an empty nothingness I know I've been overlooked why me Can't find happiness could it be that I don't see Left in the dark why me Why must I play the victim in this game That mocks me I know I've been overlooked Why me Can't find happiness could it be that I don't see Left in the dark why me Why must I play the victim in this game that mocks me I know I've been overlooked why me Can't find happiness could it be that I don't see Left in the dark why me Why must I play the victim in this game of misery I believe in nothing There is nothing left to hold me up I believe in nothing Slipping and sinking to a worthless existence I believe in nothing There is nothing left to hold me up I believe in nothing Fading away to an empty nothingness.
There's only one sure thing in this world for me and that is one day my life will end Until that faithful day arrives for me I'll drown in misery meant only for me This is all because I failed in life my friend I've failed in love again I've lost all hope it won't get better I fade away my friend I fade into my pain I give up this hurt is not worth it Life's been long hard lonely road I've hit dead ends at every twist and turn Nearer to the end if I'm meant to lose I wont lose alone I'll make sure you learn all about loss You might think my hatred has pushed you away you're never close enough to know what's in me My wounds can't mend can't heal this pain or save the soul of the one so damned Self destruction on a daily basis intoxication is my only oasis I do my best believe I can but in the end I've come up short again there's no will left to better myself The unrelenting hatred in me has got control of me Youthful dreams a reminder of a useless past Overlooked by love I'm found dead last I failed in life my friend I've failed in love again I've lost all hope it won't get better I fade away my friend I fade into my pain I give up this hurt is not worth it I will remain alone as I fade away No will left to live I'll just fade away I'm drowning right before your eyes I'm smiling but I am dying inside I'm laughing but the voices torment my head I think I'm better off dead I'm drowning right before your eyes I'm smiling but I am dying inside I'm laughing but the voices torment my head I think I'm better off dead
I tried to love but I've grown so empty inside I tried to love until something inside me died I try to live with this hatred inside I hide I close my eyes as I lose my fuckin' mind I look back upon the days that have gone My wasted youth all the shit that's gone wrong with me I see the world slowly slipping away My silent scream goes unheard every fucking day With all my soul I never wished it to be this way I've lost my faith but I fall to my knees and pray I rot away in this world not meant for me And thoughts of murder are the only salvation for me I walk the streets this violence grows inside me The people's faces I see I want to make them explode I want to take back from them what they've crushed out of me I want my soul my youth my faith my life and the love I can't see These scars that poisoned my soul they just continue to bleed I feel this rage this hatred it's killing me The days go on with no end This violence inside me grows I feel the end's coming soon but I won't go alone I hear it I know you won't believe it Voices in me that makes me paranoid There it is do you hear it I know that I'm not crazy But day after day I lose my sanity My life I've always been alone I've always been alone There's nothing left of me The game is over the game is over for me I'm left without a soul The game is over Why why must I cry Why why must I die alone No love left inside My kindness has give way to an endless barrage of emotional scars No love left in my heart I've been dead since my innocence faded away Why why must it be this way I ask myself this question each and everyday My anger runs out of control I just want to die
This is my rat race I'm alone and lost to this world Happiness is something I can't afford Thoughts of what could have been never entered my mind cause there's nothing there when I began I tried to fit in but failed Like a speeding train I've derailed I've gone down the useless path that's only heading for the sacred nowhere land Don't want to see you smile Jealousy and envy boils inside my head The pressures of life have tripled since I became a fuckin man Don't feel whole inside I'm alone Better of if I had died I'm alone I raise my hands to the sky I'm alone And ask god why am I still alive Lady luck turned her back on me I'm alone Opportunity never knocked on my door I'm alone Then you wonder and ask me why I'm so jaded and angry I'm alone (x3) Never needed anyone I'm alone (x3) I accept my destiny Being ignored has spurned in me Contempt for anyone that I see There's no cure for what I've got I've tried and fight but the pin is nonstop I'd isolate myself but necessity had locked me in It's like a fuckin sin It's here where I belong and where I've always been Don't feel whole inside I'm alone Better of if I had died I'm alone I raise my hands to the sky I'm alone And ask god why am I still alive Lady luck turned her back on me I'm alone Opportunity never knocked on my door I'm alone Then you wonder and ask me why I'm so jaded and angry I'm alone (x3) Never needed anyone I'm alone (x3) I accept my destiny
Long lonely nights My thoughts are a mess I know what I want but what I want I can't get Can't tell what day it is sometimes sometimes I sit alone and I cry And I think off all the things that have gone wrong with me in this life Grim loneliness and sorrow thrives in me The seeds of hate have matured at an accelerated rate causing doom to loom Waiting for the moment I decide it's time to die Grim loneliness and sorrow thrives in me The seeds of hate have matured at an accelerated rate causing doom to loom Waiting for the moment I decide it's time to die My childhood memories are a pain ingrained in me To reminisce is to open up old wounds I tried to leave and bury behind I've lost I've lost too many times I've failed I've failed in society's eyes Fuck them fuck them I'll show them as much mercy as this life has shown me Long lonely nights My thoughts are a mess I've known what I want but what I want I couldn't get Can't tell what day it is sometimes sometimes I sit alone and I cry And I think of all the things that have gone wrong with me in this life Grim loneliness and sorrow thrives in me The seeds of hate have matured at an accelerated rate causing doom to loom Waiting for the moment I decide it's time to die Grim loneliness and sorrow thrives in me The seeds of hate have matured at an accelerated rate causing doom to loom Waiting for the moment I decide it's time to die To reminisce is to open up old wounds I tried to leave and bury behind I try to better myself but the rush and stress of life seems to have pushed everyone ahead and left me behind I've lost I've lost too many times I've failed I've failed in society's eyes Fuck them fuck them I'll show them as much mercy as this life has shown me Long painful nights My thoughts are a mess My thoughts have become one I want to end it now I want to take all those I hate with me on a journey of pain tonight There won't be any thing you can do about it cause when I decide it's time it'll be time for all to pay It's the only way the only way for my conscience and soul to rest at ease I belong nowhere Outcast I belong nowhere Outsider
You know sometimes when I get up in the morning, I don't know if I can face another day because shit's been so fucking hard for so fucking long and it don't seem like shits ever going to change. Sometimes when I look in the mirrior, I look despised at what I see cause pride strength, all of love and life they don't seem to have alot to do with me. Feels like something went wrong with me a long time ago, something inside me way deep down died and I can't remember when, I just don't know where the fuck I went wrong… What's life but a river of tears anyway, huh?
Every Day Each fucking day I pray I pray to a god that I know does not exist For a way Some fucking way Some day For away to make my way through this world full of shit Every Day Each fucking day I pray I pray to a god that I know does not exist For a way Some fucking way Some day For a way to make my way through this world full of shit I've got nothing left I await for the angel of death I've lost too many times too many times to count the pain is so great
Let me tell you something, rock bottom is a sweet fucking dream, a myth made up by a liar who's dispear you can slip into forever. I've been as low as you can go and I guess here at the bottom the only place you can go is up, but everytime I get ahead everytime I start to get somewhere it's seems like someone or something knocks me the fuck back down. One step forward, two steps back. I read somewhere "without hope you will die" …I think I've lost hope
I've got nothing left I await for the angel of death I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great
I'm so tired of being fucked up all the time but I can't seem to do it any other way, maybe I'm not as strong as you but sometimes my fucked up life brings me down when I look around. My life it didn't make me hate it just hardened something deep down inside of me. I think it was my humanity. I want it back, I want to feel normal again, I wanna feel like a human. I don't wanna be like this no more, I'm just looking for some shelter of salvation or something to believe in or just maybe someone who cared.
I've got nothing left I await for the angel of death I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great I never asked for life I wish that at birth I had died I tried to drown this hate Death will be the cure for all this pain Every Day Each fucking day I pray I pray to a god that I know does not exist For a way Some fucking way Some day For a way to make my way through this world full of shit Every Day Each fucking day I pray I pray to a god that I know does not exist For a way Some fucking way Some day For a way to make my way through this world full of shit I've got nothing left I await for the angel of death I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great I never asked for life I wish that at birth I had died I tried to drown this hate Death will be the cure for all this pain Every Day Each fucking day I pray I pray to a god that I know does not exist For a way Some fucking way Some day For a way to make my way through this world full of shit Every Day Each fucking day I pray I pray to a god that I know does not exist For a way Some fucking way Some day For a way to make my way through this world full of shit I've got nothing left I await for the angel of death I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great I never asked for life I wish that at birth I had died I tried to drown this hate Death will be the cure for all this pain Every Day Each fucking day I pray I pray to a god that I know does not exist For a way Some fucking way Some day For a way to make my way through this world full of shit Every Day Each fucking day I pray I pray to a god that I know does not exist For a way Some fucking way Some day For a way to make my way through this world full of shit
There's no where to turn, everyone betrays you. I can't trust anyone and I'm so fucking paranoid. I'm allways waiting for the phone or door. It's just nobody for sure. I can't remember when a day's gone by that I haven't thought about bringing myself up. I know I ain't shit but I know I'll never be shit. I've got no future but I think I can deal with it, I think I can live, if I can just look at one person and see them smile at me and know that they meant it.
Every Day Each fucking day I pray I pray to a god that I know does not exist For a way Some fucking way Some day For a way to make my way through this world full of shit Every Day Each fucking day I pray I pray to a god that I know does not exist For a way Some fucking way Some day For a way to make my way through this world full of shit Every Day Each fucking day I pray I pray to a god that I know does not exist For a way Some fucking way Some day For a way to make my way through this world full of shit Every Day Each fucking day I pray I pray to a god that I know does not exist For a way Some fucking way Some day For a way to make my way through this world full of shit
What you see is what you get What you said ain't always what you meant Things were said and things were done But in the end who turned tail and run You were so blind and you were riding so high But you'll see my face alone when you cry The tables have turned on you Look inside yourself see the real you I just want to hurt you I just want to make you feel my pain I am dying silently I will lash out and make you see Hear your laughter and watch your leisure Bash your learning face to disfigure Coming after you with a vengeance to stop the resurgence of your failed devotions Judge yourself before you judge me You're no better than I am You will see A message toward your bleeding hearts Get out our way before our hatred starts The state, my state of mind is only hate The hate that dwells inside of me is to infuriate I can't begin to describe what's inside I hide the fatal thoughts of final suicide There's many things that I have to sort within my head It's all the bullshit that as a kid I was fed I can't tell who's real and who's fuckin fake I take a breath before I seal your fuckin fate I just want to hurt you I just want to make you feel my pain Look around you see the world decay Can't you see that I don't see things the same way that you do
Bullshit Who the fuck do you think you are You've taken this a bit too far Believing you're king shit In your fake fantasy A clown dress to impress Soft core, Mickey Mouse and nothing less Exposing you will make me rest Until then remember you're A bullshit fake Paper Gangster You ain't nothing but an image and a liar A bullshit fake Paper Gangster Softcore motherfucker Could it be you're really not from the streets Could it be you saw it on TV The way you act where I come from You'd never last Could it be you're lying through your teeth Liar Once a long time ago I was naive to all I know People tried to push onto me Their week mentality I woke up to and I know I am real and not for show Unlike you who knows inside You're soft because A bullshit fake Paper Gangster You ain't nothing but an image and a liar A bullshit fake Paper Gangster A Punk Ass motherfucker The life I've lived the pain I've felt With such things you never dealt So to me you are a maggot So when you go and outcast me And I can't do a fuckin thing Know that I know inside You're weak
So I hate you Much resentment and pain just drains So I revel alone in the madness inside my brain I tell you now I don't know how I don't feel these metal wounds within Will never heal My deal was to be alone That ain't as sad as the fact of being bad This world's gone mad to the chaos we add Listen up to what I'm about to say You preach peace stop the hate Useless youth feels only Frustration rising inside inside Hate still burning inside inside Chaos will hit you in your face Chaos in your face Chaos in your face Life on the streets is rough Right or wrong you must be tough Crime seems like the only way Down the wrong path you'll become a prey Chaos in your face Chaos in your face Chaos runs wild on the streets A large part of Me's defeat Major cause of our downfall Something I can't ignore Sometimes I imagine what I'm going to see Troubles and turmoils fate's got a hold on me Fuck that Chaos in your face Chaos in your face This time you've gone too far Sentiments there are no more This ends justify my means This ends in that which I believe I clench my fist to you I'm right here What you gonna do You ain't tough You ain't nothing punk So let's throw down and show what you got
You'll never know the hate that I've known Though you'll pretend that you hear You're privileged You could never understand So I will hurt you and you'll see Desperate indignant with life's how I feel Struggling to cope with it Can't let them break my beliefs Try hard (but) must realize Life is just passing me by Nothing comes easy in this world Uphill battles ahead Must correct the gross misuse Of justice and liberty We must stand up before it's too late While they bitch and moan and say That it offends them or someone else Then we'll become a silent tolerate state The want to better our way of life To accept and not to question it They say that's the way it should be I think therefore I disagree Anything I say is wrong What they decide is what it must be The sheep are quick to believe My hate no one can take that from me Anger the pain the strain Brewing to explode Anger the pain the strain I look towards the future and see That there's nothing set aside there for me But a lonely death With no one to mourn for my passing Because I'll be another rebel dead That made no difference in this nation That doesn't like to hear the truth Which is Anger the pain the strain I'll leave a fuckin scare Anger the pain the strain In this elitist life Anger the pain the strain In this elitist life Anger the pain the strain Cause my hate will overcome Anything that ever stands in my way Blinded why can't you see what I mean The writing is on the wall Open your eyes to the truth Open your eyes to my truth Open your eyes to my hate